notes from my session...week one...

I have embarked on a personel journey this year.... to find some emotional guidance...to become a better version of myself.   This is what I learned in this weeks session....


I have always been an overly sensitive individual...not only to my own emotions, but to others...I can feel and absorb others emotions....( and believe me,  I'm usually functioning from overwhelm with just my own).

I have spent a lifetime trying to deal with this...without actually being able to give it a name.  Years ago I tried to step back from it by being harsh and standoffish...I all too easily could fall emotionally into another.

I have tried for so very many years to distance myself from it.. by what I call my 'too muches'
my 'too muches'
have included

trying to accomplish too much each day
(and never having it be enough)
too much spending
too much eating
too much time spent with a glass of wine in my hand at the end of the day
but probably the hardest on my family

trying to have too much control...

too much control... 
on how things looked
what they wore 
what they did
I had a hard time letting everyone have pain in their life
so I micro managed...
I tried to control
in a vain attempt to make sure there was no pain...
but I of course I only increased it...
for all of us

But what
  I learned this week from my beloved Dr. Bock

I can show up in peace
and wholeness
and reflect that back

and 
realize I can't fix others pain
but I can show up in

compassion
which acknowledges their pain
and 
says I am capable of helping you
if 
you want my help.

But I do not have to take their pain as my own
I can not fix anyone

but I can help if invited to do so.

Showing up in peace
(I visualize this as showing up in love, God's love )
a grand concept
I know it will take much work
but I am finally at a point in my life

I feel brave enough
to try new ways

because I am old enough
and have tried long enough 
to know that running from this just doesn't work.
nor does attempting to control others
so

My mantra from this weeks session

Show up in peace



my homework assignment this week
 graciousness 
to do daily random acts of kindness
with no expectation of return.




wishing you love and joy 
as you style your life




thanks so for stopping by


6 comments:

  1. Tamera...what a lovely post. It sounds like you have made a great connection with your phycologist. What a wonderful feeling to be able to see with new eyes. I wish you all the best in the new year.
    jana

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  2. WOW... I am so proud of you! Brave to take it to this level. And I think I know why we connect. We are so much alike. Like reading myself when I read your words just now. I TRULY look forward to reading your journey of discovery this year. Love you.

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  3. Show up in peace would be the perfect life mantra.

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  4. You have so much to share and I will take away the reminder to "But I do not have to take their pain as my own," it can be so destructive. Over from PYHO.

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  5. This resonates with me so much. I, too, am so sensitive and absorb the emotions of others. I get very overwhelmed. I finally learning what is my responsibility and what I can do to help others when called, yet not take on what is not mine. I'm learning to share my compassion without trying to make everything better... leaving it in God's hands.

    I'm going to thing about what you said about peace. Can't wait to hear more about what you are learning and how God is growing you in His peace.

    Much love. :)

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  6. Lovely post. Beautiful thoughts. Thank you.

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