what i wore....2011 ....

You'd never know by how many pictures of myself I have posted since I started blogging in June...but before this year there were very few photos of me in our family scrapbook.  Mainly because I was usually the photographer....but also because I was uncomfortable about howI looked.  

I was uncomfortable...because I really hadn't taken the time to really figure out what I looked like or what I wanted to look like as my life role was changing
and 
I was getting older.

It was easier and more familiar for me to obsess and lose myself in my children
in the name of motherhood.


This was one of the first pictures I took of myself...
I was away by myself on my creative get away.  I remember feeling so foolish at the mere idea of taking a picture of myself...

but even odder...
the realization that I could not remember the last time I had a photo of just me...
not me and my kids...
not me and my husband
but 
just me.

The realization stung as I recognized how very personally lost I had become.

So I started taking....


weekly photos of my outfits....
linking up with Lindsey...

I still remember how awkward...painful actually
standing in front of the camera...
but each week I showed up...
I wouldn't let myself skip a week...
I didn't think I would ever continue....
if I did.


It eventually got easier...
some weeks more than others...
I learned how to stand 
and manipulate the photos to my advantage...


Being before the camera has never yet been something I enjoy...
Each time I must face bad shots...
take many, many to get one I like...
and
oh so quickly delete the rest...


What I have learned from this...
I didn't look as bad as I had feared...
sometimes it's a good shot...
sometimes it's really bad...
and I know my reality is somewhere in between.

I have become ok with myself...
I am what I am...


I realize
even though I'm getting older...
I still enjoy clothes...
and love accessories
I'm so happy and grateful to be designing accessories again

I don't have to give up style ...

rather I can continue to grow and develop a style
 that works for me.


wishing you love and joy
 as you style your life



thanks so for stopping by.



14 comments:

  1. It's almost impossible for me to believe you haven't always had a knack for being in front of the camera because of all the beautiful pictures of you! I'm glad you decided to get in front instead of behind the camera! And I know your family will also appreciate seeing your lovely face more frequently! Happy new year! xoxo

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  2. You are such a beautiful lady! Your outfits are elegant and classy, and photos are just gorgeous. I started blogging for the same reason, and feel the same way about being in front of the camera. You have a lovely blog! Happy New Year!

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  3. What lovely pictures, two of my favorite things, elegant and classy.

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  4. Oh, Whoa, you design accessories? I remember my getting comfortable in front of the camera (I started in the summer of 2010) again and my reasons were very similar to yours. A lovely spirit comes through in these photos.

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  5. Girl I admire all the hard work and time you spend making these posts! You are beautiful inside and out! :)

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  6. What a great post! You describe so well a very similar process to what I went through -- am still going through, in fact, every time I stand in front of the camera. It's good to know that even though we stand solo in front of our cameras, we're a community in our blogging world, as link-ups like Patti's show so well.
    Your collages are so effective -- and I know they represent hours of work. Thank you!

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  7. you look gorgeous girl! what a gorgeous collage. and you are a stunning model!

    happy new year!

    XO
    erin

    sweetnessitself.blogspot.com

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  8. LOVE THAT SMILE tamera!!! Your kids and grandkids will be so thankful and happy that you have chosen to take more photos of yourself, i am glad you have found an ease with it, i know it can be uncomfortable, but it's worth it for you, your family and us!!!

    Do you have a date as to when more of your jewelry will be available? I just adore it!!!

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  9. I love your truth here - it is so easy to get lost in your own life.

    And your style is beautiful! You shine!

    Happy 2012!

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  10. Love your outfit recap...you have a really great style!

    Annie
    www.othersideofgray.blogspot.com

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  11. Loved this post Tamera. So honest.
    And honestly? You're stunning. My top 3...
    yellow tunic in first block. And off-the-shoulder dress in second. And very top left corner in second to last. Amazing and hard to choose.
    Happy New Year! xo

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  12. I am LOVING your classy outfits! Your style reminds me of a young revved up Diane Keaton:)
    Stay Fashionable! Love,Candy
    www.candysclothescloset.blogspot.com

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  13. love your classy style! we would love for you to link up with us on sunday "sunday best dressed". we need some help with ideas on things to wear to church, so any skirts or dresses you would like to share with us would be great! hope to see you sunday!

    -chelz
    griffithsrated.blogspot.com

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  14. These are all beautiful, Tamera. YOU are beautiful! :)

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