I feel like I have had a real
Writer's Block
here on my blog
for just over a year now.
Once I completed my year of posts about
Marriage Infidelity
last January
I feel like I was holding my breath
for a while
making sure things
really were good.
And they definitely are
great between
Jeff and I now.
But life being life
has thrown us another
huge curve ball.
One of those
'never thought that would
'happen to us'
situations.
Nothing that we won't recover from
but shocking
and
full of uncertainty
all the same.
Proving once again
the only certainty in life
no matter how much I hate to acknowledge it is
Change.
Once again
I will look for every opportunity
to learn the lessons
the situation has to teach.
I will continue to
Grow My Soul
so I can later
Share What I have learned.
There is a certain beauty
in the realization
life has ups and downs
and
finding the inner peace
in the realization
that change is inevitable.
But we can learn and practice
Resilience
so that we can still
Thrive
during the process.
All that being said
I wouldn't be transparent
if I didn't admit
some days are harder and much more frustrating
than others.
than others.
I decided at the beginning of this year
I really wanted to get my
design business
up and running again
this year.
So staying focused on my own goals
under the umbrella of uncertainty
some days can be a challenge.
My life right now feels like a rollercoaster.
And
I have realized
that's OK.
I have learned to be
Resilient and Strong
these last two years.
And I know on really
frustrating days
frustrating days
it's OK to take a
Mental Health Day
a cornerstone of
Self Care.
Yesterday was a crazy frustrating day.
One of those days that felt like a
laundry list of things going wrong.
But I handled it.
By the afternoon
I realized
there was no way I was going to be productive
no matter how hard I tried.
So I opted to leave my studio for
a hot bubblebath
sparkling water
and
went to bed with my TV remote.
I watched mindless TV
until bedtime.
And
I woke up
Fresh
with my usual daily
Gratitude.
Instead of feeling bad that I didn't accomplish
my list for the day
I actually
Congratulated Myself.
I am happy I didn't fall back on
some of my usual ways
I deal with
frustration, hurt, fear or disappointment.
I didn't go out and spend money
to buy myself relief.
I didn't over eat or drink
to dull the pain.
I didn't lash out at anyone
in an attempt to avoid my own anger.
I simply went to bed.
I got up fresh and rested.
With no messes to clean up from
the day before.
And even more than that
A Renewed Spirit.
A feeling of hope.
At least for today.
As always my friends
I wish you love and joy
as you style your life