OCD and W.........

Last weekend the daughter I love to the sky and back,
 and I
traveled down to sunny San Diego
to attend a conference...


an OCD conference.

I knew this conference would be emotionally challenging for both of us

(it truly was)

 to counteract this fact...

I wanted to stay some place 

Fabulous

(and we did)

 The W San Diego

I wanted  a safe (as in stylish, can't wait to walk in an be there),

kind of emotion.

(and it was).

An.....Ahh, we're back

and everything is going to be ok......

kind of vibe

(and it was).

Quiet luxury

to offset

why we were in San Diego.

We were always aware

but you can only live in that moment 

just so long

I believe you have to take things in as you are able

being terribly overwhelmed 

just makes you want to 

run.

A safe beautiful place to fall.... 

a necessity.

 

To still feel ok

while your searching for answers 

to very troubling problems.

 Safe....

as in emotionally safe

when your risking so much 

in your honesty 

of admitting a problem

and the tremendous strength and courage 

it takes to search

for help

to be vulnerable....

you need a beautiful place 

to fall.

to refresh

to go back and look again

for answers.....

one more time

It took me way to long

to really hear

her pain

for that I will live with regret....

But I hear her now....

and we will 

journey together

for as long 

as she needs my help

in finding 

her answers....

I am honored 

to be Ellis's 

mommy.

OCD is only 

one aspect of my truly amazing daughter

 I am grateful for the journey

she and I have embarked on 

to find the answers

and help

she is looking for.

as a side note.....

Ellis, as brave and confident as she is

said it was

ok

for me 

to write about our journey.

I do love her so ....

she is truly 

inspiring!

t