I Feel Life

 

This post might be a bit visually jarring

compared to my usual.

It's a little more real life than fab outfits 

but it's so much more me.

By my age I know that life comes with

hard and beautiful

and

so many times on the same day.

Being closer to the exit sign than the entrance

gives me so much more 

appreciation for 

Life.

Yesterday Jeff and I went back to the cemetery

to pack up all the Christmas decorations.

We walked around afterwards like we usually do these days.

By now with three of my family there 

I've come to see the beauty within the cemetery.

It also feels like a club I belong to now.

Walking around I'm not filled with grief

as much as 

reverence for life

and 

empathy for the others who have suffered losses of loved ones.

After our walk 

I always feel compelled to go to the ocean.

It's where I always feel the most grounded

and 

part of something so much bigger than what I can see.

We walk on the pier.

and 

I feel life.

I feel all the beauty and heartache

all at once.

But most of all

I feel love.

I feel love and gratitude 

for all of the life I've lived.

Sending out so much love 

to you

my dear friends.

As always

I wish you love and joy

as you style your life